Sung by America
Oh, Oz never did give nothing to the Tin Man
That he didn’t, didn’t already have
I can’t believe that the day actually has arrived where I’m starting the journey of a lifetime. I can remember the days where Russ and I were dreaming and scheming ideas and places to go on our adventure when we retire.
Here I am, my entire life is now sitting in a 10 x 10 storage unit and l am living the life of a vagabond for the next year without him. If you have asked me several years ago if I could do this on my own, I would have said no way. Apparently, Russ has alway known that I could do it. He had more faith in me than I did myself.
The other day, I got a very special message from my sister-in-law.
“I am so proud of you for seeing this through… (have to admit to my tiny bit of jealousy that you are doing what I can only dream of doing)
I know what Russ wanted for you (he spoke incessantly about it) I know how important it was for him to know that you would one day venture out and more importantly that you would trust and believe that you could do anything you put your mind too. He knew how amazing you were… but somehow he didn’t think you knew how amazing you were. I think I was assigned the task of making sure you understood exactly how amazing you were when he was gone. I know how hard it has been this year. I have been in your shoes. You are an amazing woman. He knew it. I know it. You have to be to get through it and do what you are doing!”
Russ was right, I did not give myself enough credit or had enough faith in myself that I could do it. Especially about writing, all my life it has been a difficult challenge for me to write due to my hearing impairment. He has been pushing me for a long time to start blogging about our little bikes and I just always shrug at him. It wasn’t until last year where Carla King who gave me the final nudge to just do it. At first, it felt awkward and I was over thinking the process. Then after talking to several of my friends, they told me just write from the heart and ignore what others think of my writing skills. Next month will be a year since my first blog post and I have had 15,000 views since then.
Then came the final preparation for the trip itself, all of the planning and logistic are starting to come together. I talked and wrote incessantly about it. I think a lot of people just listened to me ramble about it but did not really believed that I truly was going to do it. I actually overheard a conversation between two guys where one of them said that I wasn’t going to last more than a month. I may and I may not but I have sneaky feelings that I will prove them wrong big time.
As the departure date came closer, I decided to apply to become a Jupiter’s Traveller thinking that I have nothing to lose in trying. I never considered myself to be qualified to be in such elite group of adventure travelers. Suddenly, I got an email from the Executive Director stating that he was delighted to see my application come through. He also stated that they have a lot of applications to review and will let me know in a couple of months. However, he was pretty confident that I will make the list. I was pretty stoked, I couldn’t believe that they thought my story would be worthy enough to be in the same class of those other adventure travelers. The official announcement came a day after my last day of work. What perfect timing.
Here I am, on the road starting the next chapter of my life. Just like the song, I guess the OZ never gave me anything that I didn’t already had in me. I just needed to believe in myself that all.